you know that feeling?
when your just waiting.
waiting to get home,
into your room,
close the door,
fall into bed,
and just let everything out
that you kept held in all day ...
ya - i just got done letting it all out ... again.
that feeling of both relief and desperation.
nothing is wrong but nothing is right either.
i'm just tired -
tired of everything and tired of nothing.
that feeling where you just want someone to be there
but not just anyone
but that "someone"
.. ya you want that "someone"
to be there and tell you its okay.
but no one is there
and i know i have to be strong for myself,
because no one can fix me.
but i'm tired of waiting for someone
to be there when i get "there"
... wherever there is ...
i'm still tired of waiting though.
tired of being the one to have to fix myself and everyone else.
tired of being strong.
and for once you just want it to be easy.
to be simple ...
just want some help -
real help with no strings attached ...
im still hoping and still have some wishes too.
i'm still staying strong and learning to rest in God's glory
there's still some fight in me no doubt
.. maybe with some tears in my eyes
but still fighting.
fighting the good fight of faith.
oh ya -
and i still believe.
